I Will Rise

I am going to start out this blog post by saying things that are positive because I am about to throw down some very negative things. 


1. It is October 27! (I started this yesterday. It is now October 28.) Do you know what that means?? Michael and I are one month away from being married for ONE YEAR!! Whoop! It has been a year of learning to say the least. You always learn the most about someone after you start living with them. Example: No matter how many times I show Michael how to fold the towels, he always gets it wrong. Haha. Or, no matter how many times he tells me he does not like a certain food I am surprised and give him a hard time. It has been a wonderful year and I cannot wait to see what God has planned for us next!


2. Allie is growing! She is almost 8 months old and weighs a whopping 60 pounds! I did have a lot of good things to say about her until 10 minutes ago when I was about to sit down and start typing out this blog and I found that she tore up a ziploc bag, empty the contents (which were Michael's hunting face paint), and was chewing on the tubes of paint. GOOD thing is that she did not puncture the tubes. WHEW! After my day, I think my blood pressure was through the roof at that moment...

And now about the raised blood pressure......... Please bear with me on this one. 

I love my job. I do. I love going into work every day and hearing kids say "Ms. April" and give me hugs. I love teaching them and seeing them grow. However, I do not love being bit, spit at, having to chase you down the hall, telling you to not climb on everything in the room. I most of all, do NOT love being called a "stupid b****" ten times in one day. BY A FOUR YEAR OLD! Let me get this straight: this is not done by all of the kids - just one. One child. One child who has caused my heart to ache every day because I see they are hurting. They have not had the easiest life at only four years old. This one child has me contemplating why the heck I even want to be a teacher. How long can the good outweigh the bad?? This is something I am seriously struggling with. My heart is breaking. My patience has gone out the window. Granted, I do not want to teach four year olds. I want to teach 5th grade and beyond. Someone told me it is this child that will make you want to change your major. That scares, or now scared, me. 

After sitting for a night and talking to Michael I am feeling better about the situation. I need to pray to God for the patience and the understanding so I can try and get through to this child. I love working with kids and I would hate for one child to take that away from me. I just please ask for your prayers so that I can begin to start anew with this child and forgive them for what has already happened. I need to stop holding a grudge and move forward so they can move forward. After working with this child I will (hopefully) have nerves of steel. Right now I am just worn out, exhausted, and lost.

I will try and promise not such a debbie-downer for our next post. I am going to end this post with a song that came on the radio when I was leaving work on that defeated day - the exact moment I needed it. 

I Will Rise - Shawn McDonald (Click the link)

We hope everyone has a great rest of October!